Full Steam Ahead!

So, as I sit here..unable to sleep because my sleep schedule is all fucked up again (my fault as usual), I have so many things on my mind (of course, isn't that how it always works?)

When riding in the car tonight on our way to grab various items for our needy hands, I had a certain kind of realization that tends to come at the most random of times, but remains truthful beyond your own realization until after you really think about it.

People don't always agree with me, nor do they think I've made the right choices in life, but I'm happy.
And I'm happy because no matter what happens in my life....anytime I want something I go after it.

I can't stand just sitting around and whining about how you want something but can't have it. Why? There are so many options and paths you can take, why not go for what you want? You can make it happen if you try hard enough or go about it the right way.

It seems like everything I've wanted in my life, after a bit of hard work and determination (not to mention a willingness to talk to people) has happened.

I wanted to get a job at this place, it happened..
I wanted to go to this school, it happened.
I wanted this boy, it happened.
I wanted to learn how to do this, I taught myself.
I wanted to model, it happened.
I wanted to dance. It happened.
I wanted to completely alter my life and move it from one state to another...it happened.

And now I'm reaching another crossroads within my life where I know what I want...but this journey in getting there is most likely going to be the most difficult one yet.

Some people think I'm silly and I'm just young. But isn't that the whole point? You only have one life to live (that you can be sure of, you pagan freaks) so you might as well make it interesting for yourself. Do what makes you happy.

It might take a little time and effort, but what else do you have?

So, in the next year and a half, Sam and I are looking to some pretty major changes. In the mean time, we intend on preparing our lives and future careers as much as possible.

Full steam ahead, I say! As we prepare for our next journey. :)

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